life is forcing change again. this time, with greater force. to be honest, i’m reeling a bit, trying to adjust. when i let my mind go into the events that led to this point, it makes me feel queasy. i’m not sure that i’m ready for that point just yet. right now, i’m focusing on taking care of myself as best as I can. I need to figure out where to get started in this process. I want to be able to clear out the things that are causing me pain, confront them and free myself of them so I can move forward.